That Hurt

They didn't even have the item in the damn store!

I have been to BRU before during this whole TTTC journey and it didn't really bother me. Not even when we spent hours there when my sister was registering.

But wow - it hit me HARD today. I don't know if it's because of who I was buying for or because I think this cycle is going to be a big hard BFFN.

I was ok when I first walked in. But toward the end of the trip, I was about ready to lose it. And to make it worse, the item I went there for they didn't have and I had to wait in line behind a complete idiot (I bought one small item), just prolonging my stay there.

I managed to hold it mostly together while I was in there, but I lost it on the way home. It was not pretty. I think DH noticed when I got home that I had been crying, but didn't say anything. Hopefully I wasn't too pissy to him. I'll have to apologize later just in case.

So now, I ordered the stupid bouncer seat and it'll arrive in a week or so. Yay me. Then I get to wrap it and and get it out of my damn house.

OK - sorry about the language and the complaining. I'm off to zone out and watching something that is as far from baby as I can get.

7dp 5dt & a Trip to Babies R Us

7dpt: More HCG is produced as fetus develops

Well, today is going to be spent with exciting trips to Babies R Us and the grocery store and cleaning the house. Now - don't be jealous -- not everyone can live the exciting life that I do! ;-)

Yeah, the trip to Babies R Us is for my 19 year old niece. Maybe she's 20 now? I don't know. Either way, she and her now husband are due next month - although we hear she's on bedrest now, so who knows. It makes me so mad sometimes when I think about it. Neither of them had a job when they got knocked up, neither had a high school degree and live with their uncle. Good times.

At least now he has a job and a GED. But she still has neither. So, yup - they of course found out they were pregnant and got married in November and is due next month. I can't make it to the shower, but my DH is going out there in a couple weeks so will bring my gift with him and have his mom bring it to the showe. Even if it were in town, I'm not sure I could make myself go to the shower. I don't know. I probably would since I wouldn't want to be rude, but I just don't know...

But, enough about that - moment over. The rest of the errands are for the SUPERBOWL!! Not sure what we're making yet, but will most likely involve making pizzas, wings, cheesy taco soup and who knows what else. And the house cleaning - the house isn't bad right now, but sometimes you just need a good excuse to get the house in top shape, you know?

So all the work today for a fun day tomorrow. Hope everyone enjoys their weekend!

Perpetually Hungry

I have heard others who were on PIO talk about this but man - I never knew how true it was! It seems like for the last few days, every couple hours I'm hungry. And I don't just mean a little - I mean full on stomach growling hungry. I have tried to eat healthy, but it doesn't always happen. An apple doesn't really do the trick, you know? It often makes me hungrier!

That and this headache. My stuffy nose is clearing up, but this headache has decided to hang around the last 2 days. And nothing seeems to help. Maybe a weekend away from work will do the trick - I hope so!

OK, sorry - complaining over. ;-)

We're watching "Swing Vote" now. It's actually not too bad - I recommend!

Have a great weekend everyone!

6dpt 5dt

6dpt: Placenta cells begin to secret HCG in the blood.
So, I guess that means something might show up if I POAS. Maybe. I looked this morning and I only have one Dollar Tree cheapie left. I may just have to stop on the way home tonight and pick up a couple more, just in case.

Because - just like Shawna - I'm not sure I'm patient enough to wait until Beta on Monday to find out if this worked. I need to POAS at least once to make sure the trigger is out, and then, I admit, I will probably do it at least once this weekend to see if anything results and then again Monday morning to brace myself for the news. Especially since I'll be at work when they call.

In other news, I'm off to watch the Harry Potter movie with some friends tonight. We are participating in the book club's Harry Potter month book read/movie watch in preparation for the next movie to come out in July. Yay!

Hope everyone has a great weekend - anyone watching the Superbowl? Cards or Steelers? ;-)

Shawna - hope those contractions subside for you and you can feel better and keep cooking those babies just a bit longer!

5dp 5dt

5dpt: Morula is completely inmplanted in the lining and has placenta cells & fetal cells

So, now the little mushrooms should be completely implanted - yay! No new symptoms - still just tired a lot, some achy uterine feelings, and can't seem to eat enough. But, who knows what it's from at this point - you've got to love the whole:

PMS Symptoms = Meds Symptoms = Pregnancy Symptoms

It just plays with your mind!

I do have to admit this 2ww has gone by faster/easier than the others. I'm not sure if it's because we did a 5dt instead of a 3 so there was less time to think about them after they were transferred, or because I've just come to accept that this may not work, or what. But, I just have to get through tomorrow and the weekend and the Beta is Monday morning.

Now - the big question. Will I POAS between now and then? ;-)

4dp 5dt - PIO Queen!

If everything's still on track, here's what the little ones should be spending their day doing:

4dpt: Implantation process continues and morula buries deeper in the lining

Outside of that, I have big news! Inspired by a fellow Nestie, I did my own PIO shot last night - yay me! I am trying to think positive that this cycle will work. And if that's true, I'll have to keep doing PIO injections for a few more weeks, including time when DH is out of town.

So I figured why not give it a try now while he IS in town in case I can't do it, right? Well, I did it last night and it worked - honestly not bad at all! I had to move it around a little to get my fingers right to pull back to check for blood, but not too bad. I could do it again with no problem. Go me!

And I'm sure everyone reading this knows what a PIO-sized needle looks like, but just in case, here's a sample. Not the same drug, but the same needle - yikes!

As far as symptoms, I'm beginning to lose some hope since they are going away. My boobs aren't as sore, not really gassy/burping nearly as much, I'm tired, but not exhausted, no more acid reflux/heartburn. I continue to have an achy feeling in my uterus and pains in my vagina (weird, but true), but I don' tknow - most likely from the meds. Despite trying to remain positive, I still have to tell myself that this may not work so I am not absolutely crushed should I hear a big fat NO. It's better for me that way.

So, let's all hope they are snuggling in today like good little ones - go embies!

3dp 5dt

3dpt: Implantation begins, as the blastocyst begins to bury in the lining

As far as symptoms, nothing too different than yesterday. Still really sore boobs, tired, acid reflux (I'm assuming that's what this feeling is), a bit emotional, etc...

I have also had some annoying ovary pains, but I am going to attribute that to the fact that I'm getting sick and keep blowing my nose - a lot. I'm thinking that might be putting some pressure on my abs, ovaries, etc... with each blow. Or maybe cysts from all the stims.

Implant little ones, implant!